it's been a while.
well, what is there to say? the new year came and went and with it there went a big part of my heart, my family and my joy.
i wasn't really in the place to write something. anything.
but in the last week there have been talks and somehow, accidentally, i found answers. and with them i found new strengths and a will to change, once again.
tonight is a silent one. i had a very honest and beautiful talk with the sweetest roommate anyone could wish for.
he recommended to listen to these to songs, and now they haunt me.
You see I bleed on the side It's a part time thing, a private affair I try to keep it out of the light.
so vincent is up in the north fighting for his career and while i miss him very much i listen to some lovely music, eat christmas cookies and drink my green tea.
boy, the year is coming near its end and it's actually the first time i start thinking about making new year's resolutions. when i was a child my parents always asked me what they were and i would just say: to be more hardworking and be good at school (but i never was).
so much happened this year which made me mature on so many different levels that i want to work on having goals. not huge in the far future goals (of course i have those, somehow..) but little ones and a little bigger ones like saving money for an adventure with V. in the summer. we thought about iceland. and taiwan. and japan.
but we'll see.
do you already think about the new year and what it might bring? or are you living in the 2012-moment what soon will come to an end?
i wish you a lovely night.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
On a day like this, when all the clouds seem to open up just to let us know; yes, once again, the year is slowly coming to an end. all i can do is stand by the window and watch the heavy rain pouring down on the sidewalks and streets. Since i was very young one of my favourite moments were times like these when i would lie on my bed and listen to the drumming sound of the rain.
I always have my rainy tunes on, either on record or in my head.
So if you like some music perfect for rainy days with a glass of vino and the need stare at the walls or watch the rain or lie on the floor and just be.
summertime sadness by lana del ray.
this song is haunting me all day long already. i didn't really like lana del ray in the beginning. her songs were played all over the radio and i was just annoyed by them. but since a week or so; i don't know. it took an epic u-turn and lets my heart ache.
it's a curious thing. this thing called music.
...some of you might know amy winehouses version of the song: will you still love me tomorrow.
it was the same here with me. but a couple of days ago i stumbled of this beautiful version by the shirelles. i am not sure if there's is the original, but anyhow i love it!
isn't it just the perfect music for a nice evening on the balcony, with a cool beverage in your hands and your favourite person right next to you?
right now, i am at vincents school like so often this past weeks. i am waiting for him so we can go to the aare, which is a beautiful river here in switzerland. it passes right through bern. and since the summer just go into town we are gonna take a break, jump on our bikes and let the aare take our breaths away (literally, since it's still freezing cold, man. 15°C. )
And i am going to show off my brand new bathing suit.
Isn't it pretty? I love the vintage look of it! i searched for ages for a nice swimsuit that comes in my cup size and which i can afford at least a little bit. and after a frustrating webjourney, i stumbled across this. and then it still took me a couple of months to decide on this piece. and tough its not the peeeeerfect fit i am so freaking happy!
I purchased it on figleaves, which is an english webstore and it has a great selection of bigger cup sized swimwear and lingerie. so if anybody else out there is always near a mental breakdown when it comes to buying lingerie, give it a look.
Eventough the bathingsuit is a little extravagant for my usual style i just really love it. i just have to learn to wear it with confidence. i got curves, why not show them off?
