Recent Crushes

next monday is my 23rd birthday. eventhough i'd love to spend lots of money on these beautiful things i won't. but still a girl can dream, can't she? 

aren't these perfect mittens for the swiss winter?

i'd love to decorate our room with this lovely illustration

i saw it in a bookshop. i am in love

this is so going to happen

i need to keep my feet warm, don't they look cozy?

i am so excited to try this vegan cheesecake raspberry recipe!

so this girl has curls.

as you can see i have curly hair.

A strange thing happend a couple of days ago. I discovered i had curls. I know this sounds rediculous. How did i manage to not notice them before? I just brushed them right into straightness without even thinking about it.
I never put much thought into my hair. I grew up with ironflat hair, as a girl who hated to brush and loved playing in the sand. Since i was blessed with endless whirls on my head which when not brushing my hair led to dreadlocks so if  anybody tried to brush them out it resulted in a screaming kid who was afraid of brushes- so the cirlce began.

When my parents were finally fed up with it they cut my hair so short i was crying for days because i didn't feel as a girl anymore.

since then i always wore my hair somewhat short.

but when i hit puberty something strange happened. my hair started to curl up. i don't really know how and why that happened because all my siblings have silk smooth hair and my mom as well. My father might have wavyish hair but never really curly. I did some research recently and found out it had something  to do with hormones- anyway.

i noticied that when i didn't comb my hair after the shower my hair would be all messy and curly and all over the place.but i thought of it as wavy, at the most. since i has my childhood trauma about not being able to brush my hair, i always brushed it. even when my boyfriend said i looked cute with unbrushed hair i couldn't stand it.

i always wore my hair short for some reason, but a year ago (after a radical short haircut) i wanted to really try growing long hair. i always said to myself that this was impossible since i have really fine hair which gets frizzy and dry so ialways had to cut them before they could grow long.

So i started a journey to find methods which restores the health of my hair so i would not have to cut it. and after a long and tiring search in the internet i thought: why not try looking for information on how to treat curly hair?

it seems so obvious but it wasn't. I was introduced to a whole new world, in which you co-wash, and fingerbrush and use diffusors.

There is a big community who all struggle with the same difficulties. Who would have known?

Let me tell you, I am so happy i found this world because my hair feels healthy and shines and was shocked that everything i did to my hair before was really wrong. And if you don't have someone in you family who knows about those things it can be really hard to think outside the box.
but you should.

Will you still love me tomorrow?

...some of you might know amy winehouses version of the song: will you still love me tomorrow.
it was the same here with me. but a couple of days ago i stumbled of this beautiful version by the shirelles. i am not sure if there's is the original, but anyhow i love it!

isn't it just the perfect music for a nice evening on the balcony, with a cool beverage in your hands and your favourite person right next to you?

right now, i am at vincents school like so often this past weeks. i am waiting for him so we can go to the aare, which is a beautiful river here in switzerland. it passes right through bern. and since the summer just go into town we are gonna take a break, jump on our bikes and let the aare take our breaths away (literally, since it's still freezing cold, man. 15°C. )
And i am going to show off my brand new bathing suit.

Isn't it pretty? I love the vintage look of it! i searched for ages for a nice swimsuit that comes in my cup size and which i can afford at least a little bit. and after a frustrating webjourney, i stumbled across this. and then it still took me a couple of months to decide on this piece. and tough its not the peeeeerfect fit i am so freaking happy!
I purchased it on figleaves, which is an english webstore and it has a great selection of bigger cup sized swimwear and lingerie. so if anybody else out there is always near a mental breakdown when it comes to buying lingerie, give it a look.
Eventough the bathingsuit is a little extravagant for my usual style i just really love it. i just have to learn to wear it with confidence. i got curves, why not show them off?

aw, man.
fake confidence.

anyhoo, i wish you the best!
S